Thinking Aloud..?

9:06 AM 9/11/2007
I understand that it is difficult to acknowledge the presence of some one in you progeny's life. It is harder to accept that this new person knows more about the daily routine than you do, i understand or atleat comprehend the gist if not in totality...but still i find it odd and kinda accusing when she asks what time he left the office, if i say that he had called at 5 and he left the office at 5 she asks whether he has still reached home or not.. i feel it accusing...may be she is trying to find something to discuss about, may be she is still getting to terms that I am more updated by him about him, may be she feels bad about it and tries to hint that he should call her/them. But he does call, does not he? he calls almost (and I actually mean almost) daily apart from days when we have really horrible fights or when he actually is busy..
and why should i feel accused? I understand..isnt it, that it is difficult and still she may be handling it better than me..
to top it all...i am this weirdo , if left to myself i would not tell half of things happening to anyone ANYONE until i feel like it..and the time may come after 2 min or 2 months or never come at all..

Sometimes I feel trapped